Things are shaping up to be pretty odd!

I hope you all enjoy the May issue, it’s full of fun and awesomeness. What’s really cool about this issue is that I updated it on my own! That’s right; the HTML challenged person has finally learned how to update the website.

Now usually this is the part where I’d start listing off a bunch of bands you should be listening to, although right now it would be a list of T.V. shows since that’s what I’ve been doing since my summer vacation began. But I’ve decided to shake things up a bit.

I’ve been doing everything I possibly can to change who I am: Change my wardrobe, trying to be more positive and try to be more responsible. In the end, however, how much of these changes are truly me? I mean I can try to smile more and dress more like an adult but then there are those days where I go back to my band T-shirt, self-loathing, emo teenager days that I thought I grew out of.

Is it really possible to leave your teenage years in the past?

I still go to concerts where I’m probably the only one in the line old enough to drink. I still like music that the majority of preteens still love and enjoy. I still slam my door and yell at my parents like I’ve done years ago. I still act like a 5 year old hopped up on sugar.

So is it really possible to step away from all of that?

I think it is. Even though some people still think I haven’t changed since high school, they can’t say I haven’t grown up a little. Mutedmag forced me to learn how to deal with problems and I’ve gone through so much in the past two years that I never thought I’d ever have to deal with.

So maybe the 14 year old acting like she’s 5 and the responsible adult have joined forced and created who I am today.